I've been Betrayed by those I Love!

Good evening aunty Amara, my heart has been shattered, I have been betrayed by those I care about the most. This is my story. I met this guy sometime in 2011, he asked me out and I agreed, he wanted sex and I refused, he broke up with me. In 2013 he came back from Malaysia, I was still a virgin, we started the relationship again this time I thought it was for the better, I gave him my love, my life and my body, I loved him so much that I could take a bullet for him, am not from a rich family.
I got admission into school of nursing 2013, he said he would see me through school, he paid N200, 000 for my first semester fee. When I got into school, he changed totally. I knew he was a flirt before but he said he has changed, he started bringing girls to the house, even right under my nose, life became unbearable with him but I was trying to cope because who will pay my fees if I leave him? There was nothing I did not suffer from him, after paying the second semester fees, I couldn't continue with him so I broke up with him.
My pain was this while we were dating my younger brother
said he wanted to be staying in his place cos it was close to were he was doing his Industrial Training. So I talked to him and he agreed. We broke up December 2014 and up till now my younger brother was still in his house, when I asked him what he was still doing in his house he stopped talking to me, he has not called me for over a year now.
When I talked to my mum about it, my mum said I do not want my brother's progress, he snapped pictures with my ex's new girlfriend and posted it on Facebook, I don't know if it's to hurt me, though he's my step brother but we grew up together. Whenever I see him at home he shares money for my siblings and looks at me like a piece of trash. Am so hurt that I don't know what I feel anymore.

This is the most painful part, when I was going through all these, I ran to my pastor cause I just needed someone to counsel me, he did collected my number, and started calling me, the call became too regular and I was getting confused. I became more confused when he asked me to date him, I refused and he kept bugging me, no one to tell but I told him I can never do it.
He became angry so I stopped going to church. Haven't gone to church since August last year, but am crazy about God, I love him so much, I felt empty not going to church.. I have been single since 2014, have been praying to God to heal my wounded heart. But I know I needed help so I don't lose it, by next month, I will graduate as a Registered Midwife of Nigeria, I paid my fees without my ex I survived without him.


That a man is a pastor or a preacher doesn't necessarily mean that such an individual has the maturity and the discerning spirit to counsel someone who has emotional challenges.
So before you run to your pastor for counselling, you must as a matter of necessity make adequate research and enquiries about his personality to avoid being exploited or exposed by some individuals whose interest is in what he will gain and not how to help you.
From your mail, it's obvious that you are still hurting from your past relationship and you are working so hard to let him know that you are better off without him.
If you ask me, I would say that it's not necessary to impress him or to hold unto him. There's no need trying to pull your brother from him if he feels that he's cool with him.
I think that what you should do now is to accept the truth that you love him so much but you do not share the same values, convictions and future with him. It won't make you weak but it will strengthen your heart and help you to heal faster so that you can embrace love once more.
Both of you shared so much together but it was not enough to make the relationship work so there is no need to feel bad or jealous or uncomfortable with his decisions.
Move on not because you don't love him but because you deserve to be appreciated, respected, celebrated and valued. Love yourself so much that even those who made comparison with you will turn back and wish that they never left.
Celebrate yourself, let your brother be if he wishes to live with him and ignore his attitude to you. Thank God that you are now a midwife and very soon you will start reaping the dividends of your sacrifices.
That a pastor sought to take advantage of your circumstances doesn't mean that you should stop worshiping God. If you are not comfortable with your current place of worship, you can go to another church where you feel better and at peace with or go for another branch of the church. Nourishing your spiritual life is your sole responsibility and it will be wrong to quit serving your God with all your heart because of one individual or entity.
Devote everything to God and allow him to perfect that which he has already promised to you.