How Do I Move on After Losing my Dignity and Respect for Love?

Good morning ma. I need advice from you and your followers. My issue is quite lengthy, bear with me. I was in a relationship for twelve years.

Within the first three years I refused sleeping with him since I was very young, and wanted to keep my virginity. He started sleeping with other girls with the excuse of refusing to sleep with him. I later accepted. Along the line I dated someone else. When he discovered, he was furious and I broke-up with the guy. I didn't sleep with the other guy.

Find It Difficult To Respect My Husband.

Have been going through your write up on daily basis, whenever I misses it, it's as if part of me is missing. Well done for your good works. 
After reading the man's story on I MIGHT JUST ENJOY THIS MARRIAGE, I was happy but also felt bad not that I am a witch who doesn't like good things, but cos I desire my marriage to be as peaceful as that.